Life as I know It at 56 and three quarters.
Always be The Good Child
Always Understand
Never talk of Private Things
It might get out of hand
Love me unconditionally however alone you feel
Don’t divulge secrets you know we have a deal
Dont do as I do, Do as I say
Don’t go with your instincts lock them clean away.
Don’t tell me your childhood fears or woes
Don’t tell me they were bad
Because I had it worse than you, so you don’t know how to be sad!
When you try and love me and help me through and through
Only do it my way, or I will reject you
Understand my foibles understand my pain
Don’t tell me about my mental health because in that there’s shame
If you try and keep me safe I will think you are insane
Don’t let doctors help me when I’m clearly really ill
Don’t come round my house with any kind of pill
Help me until you drop and when you can do no more
Then I will turn on you and show to you the door.
My love is unconditional in a very conditional way
So live your life quietly please,put on your clownish mask
Don’t come to me crying I really don’t want to ask
Don’t tell me I need more help, or ways to be more free
Don’t let me accept anyone’s help
Because I’m frightened of insanity
If you find me somewhere else to live
I will always assume the worst
Even though you’ve never hurt me
I will always assume you’re bad
So play the game or shut up
Or enough of the relationship I will have had
I know deep down you love me
And have always cared
I know you’ve held me in your arms when I’ve been really scared
I know that you gently told me you only want to help
But now I can’t remember and you must just jog on
I am sceptical of your motives now my cognition has well and truly gone
I know that you know these things
But I really don’t care at all
Because you are the worst daughter and you need to have a fall
So don’t call me anymore or visit me or phone
I’d rather sit and stew and fume and be here all alone.
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